Archives > July 2003
Saturday, July 26 2003
Goin' to Amurikah
Guys, I'll be gone from tomorrow until the 7th cuz... I'm taking my vacation in the US! I am really looking forward to it (except the 8-hour flight) but yeah I am so happy!
I am just hopeful it won't hurt so much coming back here after it's over.
So I will miss you very much and hope you'll be missing me too! mwah!
It's gonna be a bright sunshiny day
Saturday, July 19 2003
So tired of it
So I am looking for another job - big time. I just
wish I knew really what I wanted to do but right now I am too confused.
People telling me left and right I made a mistake, when they know deep inside that I couldn't help my situation, that I had to deal with complete assholes who screwed me over... all the way.
Other people are telling me to go back to school and keep studying, I dunno, maybe get a law degree. Because you see, getting a law degree is the easiest thing in the entire world when you are not the one who has to go through with it.
"Guess there is nothing else exciting to talk about so what now? Well!! Let's talk about Federica, her life is like a soap opera!
Just moved back to Italy and after an entire year still feels completely misunderstood (and completely misunderstands everything around her), has nobody else but herself, is having a shit time at work and is about to lose the job of everyone's dreams.
Federica has always been a good person, she has always succeeded at everything so why is she not making it now? Why?
Oh well, she just must make it otherwise how can I brag to my acquaintances? How can I show myself that I succeeded in raising her, in making her what she is?
Federica has always done what I told her, she'll do it again this time... because Federica loves me and Federica will not disappoint me.
I love Federica because she listens to me, she loves me, therefore she is me."
Wednesday, July 2 2003
I'm walkin' away
I did it. Two days ago WE had a fight. You know, I can't tell ya all the story because others might be seeing this site but you know how depressing my last posts have been. Well it was all about a conflict that I was having in my life.
Here's what I learned: if you want to have a career, a family, a good life, whatever just make sure you don't let one thing happen. Make sure you don't let others treat you without respect, even if you think that is happening because you are the last arrived or because you are young.
Just because you are young you are more competitive and the only thing you lack is the experience. You don't lack dignity, intelligence, practicality. Actually, you have more energy and will power to succeed than other people who are already there have.
So on Monday I did it. I fought back. I was tired of getting yelled at because of someone's nervousness, of getting blamed exaggeratedly for something I had barely even done alone.
I called in sick, am going to be gone until next week, July 13th, I have to get away from this city. If you love me don't worry, I am ok.
What I learned out of this awful experience is that to grow I can be taught, but I cannot be demolished. That shit is what they do in the fuckin' Army and because I did not enlist I ain't puttin' up with it.
I might have a computer while I am gone so I'll be able to chat and check email but I won't be able to update the site.
I will miss it horribly but I will be back soon. Sometimes people have to walk away.
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