Hey, I'm feelin' quite pissed off today. I ain't gonna get all specific on you cuz walls have ears but let's just say that I feel like grabbin my shit and catching a one way flight to friggin' Bermuda.
I just think it's really screwed up when a person tries to do something with his/her life and tries to feel as confident as possible and then has to deal with stupid nut bags who judge and totally make you feel like shit.

Let's just say that I am feelin' confident about what I do. I mean, I am 22 and have graduated in journalism, speak my nice 3 languages (well, 2 and a half) and love to do websites. I know there's a lot of crap I cannot do (of course) but on what I just told you I can do I feel totally comfortable. Why is it that people have to hate and make you feel like crap even when you know what you are doing and know what you are all about?

K, lemme get a little more specific or else ya'll aren't gonna get what I am saying. Let's pretend you want something, and that something is a thing you can have with your abilities although it's not guaranteed - meaning, there are others out there who have a higher chance of getting that thing but you want to give it a try anyways because you think you have the skills to at least have a chance on it. You talk to the person whose job is to find the right person for "that thing" and they tell you they'll let you know.
You go away a little scared, but confident on your abilities and yet hopeful things will go well.
Then you find out another person gets that thing and when you talk to the person who was supposed to consider you they tell you they haven't done anything because they didn't want to embarass you, because they think you don't have the skills for that thing.

Now that's a fuckin' nut bag right there! First of all, who in the hell tells you I cannot even be considered!?!?! and most importantly, WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU THINK I HAVE TO BE EMBARASSED ABOUT?

1- I have quite enough abilities to feel good about myself
2- I have absolutely nothing to lose by trying
3- Who is the hell world are you to say something like that to me?

I was just in the damn mood to take that person and lift him in the air with my arms and just spin him round and round and throw him outta this damn world... ya know, like they do in cartoons...
This is exactly what makes one wanna give up, what makes one doubt him/herself... when turds like those guys tell you so!
Guys, I am so saddened by all this right now, not because I didn't get "that thing" (cuz it's destiny that tells me I'm supposed to get something else) but because some asshole took the liberty of judging me before even giving me a chance!
Do any of you all know if this is legal? Job wise I mean... (and that'z all I'ma say about that...)

I'm gonna go eat now, been chewing on my gum for an hour now and feel my jaw hurting... plus I am cold... sad... angry... today is just not a day worth living...

Posted by Mike @ 02/05/2003 10:26 AM GMT

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February 5 2003

Sad Holla

Hey ya'll... checkin' in to let you know I'm not dead or anything. Just wanted to thank all of you for the mad love you are showing me by coming to this site :) thank u guyz!
Let's just say I feel like a carnival attraction with people throwing pies (or even rotten eggs) at me to win stupid prizes. Lately things haven't been all that "peachy keen" but hey, gotta keep yo head up right?
I guess crap like this happens, mean people are the ones who make you grow, crying really makes things clearer and much lighter in the end. Been crying too much those past few days. Feel like I'm being punched in the face repeatedly... and for no fuckin' reason at all.
Honestly waiting for some confirmation or something good to happen to me. But like the very wise Aaliyah sang, "If at first you don't succeed DUST YOURSELF OFF and try again" or again like Diddy says "Can't nobody take my pride can't nobody hold me down oh no I've got to keep on moving."
MOVIN' ON UP... and honestly, that's the only direction I can head towards.
One love...

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February 6 2003

Maniac at bus stop

Soooo I am getting ready to go to bed to wake up to the last day of the week (yipeee) but before I do lemme tell ya what the heck happened to me today.
Let's just say I like to dress up but, really, when it's winter time I freeze my booty off to death and I rarely wear skirts. Plus, you ladies know, wearing a skirt requires you to wear nice fancy shoes and it ain't fun to be wearing high heeled boots and risk a severe ankle fracture as you desperately try to catch up with the bus (that passes by once every half an hour) as it closes its doors and drives away.
Well, this morning I said to myself f that, this morning I ain't even gonna open the damn blinds cuz if I do I'll never want to wear a skirt (since it's cold as heck lately). And I got all dressed up, tried to do something with my static hair and put my contacts on, a little make-up... goodness, sometimes a girl has gotta pamper herself more than usual!
Well the day went just ok and in the evening time around 6,30 when I got out of work ... well, lemme just say I felt like a common prostitute walking down the street and hearing car horns honking at me... jesus! you haven't even seen my face, as much as you know I may even turn around and be nasty with a mustache and a unibrow and you still honk cuz you see legs...
piggy
and besides that I walked towards the bus stop and there was only an old lady there waiting. You must know that there is a hooker who works right next to the bus stop, yes, I see her every day! I remember when I had started working I had seen her and the third day in a row, thinking she was indeed waiting for the bus I said to her "always run into each other, always waiting huh?"
Yeah yeah, i know it sounds dumb and blonde of me (I have brown hair, still luv ya blond chicas :)) but I didn't know! I think she didn't like that and now everytime she sees me she pretends to look the other way.
And as I was saying now it was me, the old lady and the hooker... yeah, just a very pretty picture. And suddenly this man comes by, you know girls those slimy men who you know are slimy without even thinking twice... and I see him with the corner of my eyes... he is looking at the bus schedule but see him looking at me... THEN I MEAN, HE PRACTICALLY DEVOURS ME WITH HIS EYES, you know the stare that maniacs on TV have right before they are about to attack a girl and then cut her up into little pieces to later eat her... yeah i know it sounds nasty but really!!! that shit just spooked me the fuck out!!!! what the hell was i to do, not like my hooker friend was gonna help, not like the old lady was gonna pull out her black belt Kun-fu moves... and not like walking home was a pretty option according to my feet and the killer boots they were inside...
So then I guess the old lady saw that this guy kept looking at me and she started talking to me so he went to the hooker and I think asked her what she wanted but she said no to him (must really be pathetic if you can't even get love from a hooker cuz ya look so fuckin' spooky). And yeah, the bus finally came...
dammit, it's not fair. I did not mean to wear a skirt so that nasty old and stinky men were supposed to want to attack me, what the hell??? :( no fair, no fair at all. And I do believe it is even sadder when women managers who are really important are still belittled because they are females and always considered inferior just because of their gender... :(

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Must recover

Yeah, so this is my resolution, although it's really late and a first because I have never believed in resolutions (I can't keep up with them and don't want to fool myself with them).
But I promise I will really really try to make this one come true!!! I must absolutely let shit roll right off my back, in an ear out the friggin' other. I think it's ridiculous to sit and mumble and think and imagine when really it ain't gonna do any good to me or the asshole who made me feel like crap.
Yes, I will honestly try just NOT TO GIVE A DAMN. Be a good person and work hard and such but really, not let others get me down... because I have no reason to believe them or doubt myself.

Posted by Dash Dame @ 02/07/2003 08:34 AM GMT

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February 7 2003

This week's Friday 5:

1. What did you have for breakfast this morning? If you didn't have breakfast, why not?
Well, the usual. Once I arrived at work at 10 minutes to 9 I went up to the bar and had a marocco coffee (Italian version of a small ass mocha) and a nice brioche. I was upset because I was looking for an apricot one (my ultimate favorites) but grabbed the wrong one :( and since I am a nice person I didn't put it back down...

2. What's your favorite cereal?
Well, I love rice krispies and also enjoy kelloggs corn flakes very much... the Special K ones... except I don't keep up with the diet, once I pop I can't stop.

3. How often do you eat out? Do you want that to change?
Since I returned to Italy almost never. I do have lunch in the cafeteria at work everyday if you consider that eating out. But as far as my cuisine is concerned, eating in and eating out is pretty much the same health-wise. No I don't want that to change.

4. What do you plan on having for dinner tonight? Got a recipe for that?
Ha! yeah, this will sound total looney but I am planning to cook my special recipe for tired Federica who comes home from work and doesn't feel like cooking... a nice cup of warm milk with nesquik in it and my ultimate favorite cookies, Pan di Stelle... about a whole package of those... yup, I am a piggy

pandistelle

5. What's your favorite restaurant? Why?
Here in Italy it's hard to say, but in the US I used to ADORE Pizza Hut because of their ultimate Large Stuffed Crust extra cheese light on the tomato sauce pizza... hmmm...

Jaders World

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February 7 2003

V-Day a week away

DAMMIT DAMMIT DAMMIT, as I write you this I am listening to THAT HORSE that is my neighbor upstairs who seriously needs to go to etiquette lessons or sumpin' cuz she's really rude and thumps her feet against the floor as she walks ... oooh but wait, maybe she needs to buy herself a fuckin' carpet cuz if she's gonna walk like an elephant that ain't gonna be something I'm about to put up with.
Can you believe that in exactly 7 days will be Valentine's Day? Dammit, and people will be all lovey dovey on a Friday night and be happy and care for each other and celebrate and much more hehe... not like I am not happy for you couples, big ups to ya'll but seriously, what about us forgotten souls in this world? will we be standing in the freezing cold under the pouring rain like stinky dogs with noone to love us?
I miss my gumzz...

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Hey Stinks

Man Valentine's Day is like a week away but i promise that even though im all the way over here well still make it a speacial day(ill even eat cheese and salmon)
gums

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February 8 2003

Going to gym

SOoOoOooo guyzz, today I am picking my fat booty off my computer chair and taking it to this gym I would like to sign up with. I am going with Delia, one of my coworkers, we are meeting at the subway exit at 4,30 (this delay leaves me an incredibly longer amount of time to chill and do absolutely nothing at all).
I am so looking forward to signing up and going, I have never been a huge sports freak but the gym is the most amazing thing you could ever do to yourself. Last year, when I was in the US, I would go to Bally's about 4 times a week, 3 hours a day. Right after classes I would go straight there and first do a half hour of cardio, 1 hour of weight lifts and the rest of the time in the jacuzzi, pool, steam room and sauna. WOW, just remembering how much my muscles used to hurt (the healthy way) makes me sigh and such.

Let's put aside the fact that Delia told me the gym costs more than her and I put together but she tells me it has a huge pool, jacuzzi and such plus aromatherapy and massages and just a lot more, like dance classes and everything. I hope that is really what they have! I did hear it was the best gym around here so I shouldn't be disappointed...

Crucial Bitch

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February 9 2003

An interesting reading

Boy I have sooo much to talk about today! I just got back from celebrating my father's birthday at family's amazing restaurant which featured incredible brunch buffet, guys, so, so much to eat!!!
Let's just say that I couldn't stop eating cuz there was sooo much to put in the plate! Anywayz, I took some pictures and you can check them out in the Miscellaneous Pictures gallery.

Amazing gym
So I told you I was supposed to go see that fantastic gym I heard everyone talk about... and I fell in love with it. As soon as you enter there is a huge bar with a million different kids of juices and sandwiches in case you get hungry. And they have 4 squash courts, a huge free climbing wall (that is never going to be touched by yours truly), a humongous workout room on two floors with three, four kinds of the same equipment, 5 aerobic rooms which feature spinning, aerobics, yoga and various other workouts, a martial arts section where you can learn various karate sorts and kickboxing and even boxing, a pool with jacuzzi, steam room, sauna, massage showers, aromatherapy rooms and other treatments (aqua gym and such) and even dance classes like hip hop, latin american dances bla bla bla... yeahhhhh it sounds like heaven guys!
So thursday I'm going for my first day and all... I am really looking forward to getting in shape again! Cannot wait to look good for the summer!

A walk in Antartica
So after the gym Delia and I went downtown to see stores and it was soooooooo cold. Made the wrong decision to carry cute, small purse, so I hadn't brought my hat with lip gloss and such necessities. Walked around in the freezing weather because Delia didn't remember where the place we were supposed to have cocktail hour was... went back and forth like asses in the freezing weather until we met up with one of Delia's roommates and went to this bar called ATM. Well, by the time we got there all the food was gone :( and I was so so so hungry. But practically 30 minutes after we had sat there two guys came up to us and started kicking it to us. We were like damn, like you don't waste any time.
Turns out they were pretty funny, we all talked for a while until one of them received a phone call. He then said his friend was going to come by, some sort of psychic reader... I WAS LIKE WUT WUTTTT!!!

Heavenly Miss Cleo
So this lady comes and sits down by us and looks at the three of us, she said she loves my name... as soon as she saw me she said "You want him to be too perfect." I was like bammmmm hit right in the chest. She's like "Honey, you are never going to find him the way you want him to be, you must accept a person for his faults as well." Well, that made me feel like a snob!
But I asked her to tell me a little about my future, she told me reading palms at night brought bad luck so she simply held on to my frozen hand (it was cold as hell in the place too) and told me I will remain alone for a whole year, then in a year I will meet someone who will change me a lot and I will love him and he will love me... he will be exactly what I want... and we will live together and such.
But the good part is that I asked her about my career and she chuckled and said, "honey, you don't have to worry about that. Your career is good now and it will be good in the future... you will get more than you expect, because I am a person who really puts her mind into something she wants."
So that was funky!! I don't know what to believe because she kinda was on the money on a lot of things.
But then I was afraid to ask her something... but I finally did. I asked her whether I would return to the US. She told me no, that it will be my choice to stay here in Italy... Gee, I wonder if that will be true!

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February 11 2003

Groceries at home!

Okay, whoever lives in a place that offers grocery home delivery and doesn't take advantage of it is a dummy. I don't mean to offend you, I was dumb too before yesterday! I remember when I had my bronchitis I was passed out dead and had nooo food in the house unless my mother brought me something to eat... but what the hell for?
I decided to try this whole online grocery shopping thing because I have purchased so much on the net and I thought what the heck... and soooo I placed my order on the site, it's like being in a virtual supermarket, everything you see has a description and such.
Well, last night (you can set your delivery to evening as well) the people from the online supermarket came and brought me my stuff. They came into my house and dropped off all the many bags with the heavy water, washing machine detergents, ya know, the heavy shit. And they swiped off my credit card and said "thank you ma'm" and they were gone!!
I was standing in my house like a dick not believing I had just avoided the usual Saturday desperate rush to the store with the many people in your way and the long lines at the cash register. The time wasted getting lost and looking for something, the bags that cut off your hand's circulation, the sweating, the annoying weekly experience that is grocery shopping.
I put everything away and thought to myself "f* that, now that I know how to avoid that pain in the booty I'ma do this thang every darn week!" and so honestly guys, if you live in a big city and have something like that by you seriously take advantage of it... you will not regret it.

Orby Online

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February 13 2003

Ghetto cam

I really don't understand this webcam of mine at all. For the longest time now I have been trying to figure out why the hell my computer wasn't detecting it and now all of a sudden... bam!
I had just arrived home from work and boom started taking mad shots just in case it decides to go all lethargic again and not work until 2005.
So also took many pictures cuz yesterday I went to the hairdresser and got a light perm cuz damn, my hair was all statichy and spaghetti thin... eww. And so I am a curl gurl for a while, hope ya'll like it.
Tomorrow is V. Day... who the hell cares... V. Day makes u suffer if you don't have someone, or that someone you have is very far away.
But ok, tomorrow I'm gonna go to work and then in the evening time I'll be going to my first day at the gym... I am preparing my bag with bathing suit and such... wow, can't wait!! hehe letcha know all about it Sat. morning or afternoon (when I wake up... k?)
Make sure you check out my cam page for tons of pictures of moi... that is if you care at all!

Exotica

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February 15 2003

Saterder mornin'

::Edit: So I was just about to make breakfast when I turned on this channel of TV. There is a movie about a little girl who gets this retarded guy to help her fly a sleigh full of suitcases. They say oh come on, you can do it. And this "Vehicle" is supported by, like, a hundred helium balloons... and she actually takes flight! goodness, the retarded guy is like "have a good trip" ... is this how good tv can get? plueease, somebody pop a DVD in cuz it ain't gettin' more Jerry Springer trash than that!::

Hella' Saturday

Yup, so it's only 10 am and my ass has been awake for about an hour and a half... why? because that shit girl who lives upstairs decided to blast MTV Italy while she cleans her scummy house full of crap.
Well, what was I to do? Not like I could have bitched... it WAS 8,30... but really, can you just shut the fuck up please?
Last thing I need is your crazy ass music while I sleep... let alone as I wake up. So here I am witchyall, hope you many lucky basteddz enjoyed Valentine's Day! yup, right...
Yesterday I had my first day at the gym. I took this aqua gym class then went into the jacuzzi, the aroma therapy room and some other oasis quiet room that has beds in it and you can lay down while you listen to chill music and watch a relaxing video.
Honestly, I really think the gym is the best thing I could do to myself! I'm not even feeling burn now, I think it's cuz aqua gym is not too tough on muscles ... only one thing... feel as if my ass has been doing squats in its sleep cuz ... don't be a sicko... I'm only talking about exercise folks!

So, here is my Friday 5...
1. Explain why you started to journal/blog.
Well, the journal I started recently... because it gives me a chance to speak out and I love to be heard in my writing. Plus, for myself, because I think it's great to keep a journal where you can write all your memories... and because I am usually too lazy to sit there and write in a notebook I prefer doing this online cuz I know I will never abandon doing my website.
2. Do people you interact with day to day or family members know about your journal/blog? Why or why not?
Yeah they do - I don't tell everybody though because people might not understand why I have pictures of myself and why I am not afraid to show myself so much on the web.
3. Do you have a theme for your journal/blog?
What a dumb fuckin' question... next
4. What direction would you like to have your journal/blog go in over the next year?
I dano dude, I just started! but I would love people to leave more comments on it... and to share with me their experiences in them.
5. Pimp five of your favorite journals/blogs.
Definitely Mad Pony, Resha's Scandelous, OrbyOnline, KTHXBI and my own blog :)

Anyhowz, I'll check ya'll out soon, I think I am going to the gym this afternoon too so I hope this motivates you to get off your fat ass and get movin'! :) luv ya'll...

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February 20 2003

Fighter

So ya'll thought I had fallen in a rabbit hole or somethin'... well here I am, hope you missed me even if you never leave me comments :( sigh...
I have been brainstorming like crazy on a new layout that would be a decent match against the previous Lil' Kim one, which I think was the best design I ever came up with for this blog section. Well, I did get a lot of love from you on it and I hope that you will learn to love this one as well!
I was really getting tired of the Kim look and wanted to make something simple and yet nice. So I thought about the crap that has been happening to me this month.
As I told you in the previous posts (read back if you haven't been reading and wanna know about it) I figured damn this month has been full of shizatt! Like haters, liars, two-faced mofos, evil big guys and such... and I figured that I am still standing here.
I think that this much dumb poop I have been putting up with lately has only made me stronger, older... better.
I learned this month that the best thing to do in bad circumstances is to let the bad talk roll right off your back, cuz you can't just start beatin' up your boss, family or anyone who gives you problems.

My aunt told me an amazing quote she made up... "Heroes are not those who get the medals, they are those who fall but later stand up..." or something like that. I didn't mean to murder it but I don't remember it exactly, as soon as I find out the exact quote I will edit this post.

I hope ya'll enjoy this layout because it comes from the heart... really...

PS: The webcam is down again DAMMIT DAMMIT DAMMIT

It's like a curse that is the cure...

Posted by Dash Dame @ 02/21/2003 01:53 AM GMT

haha, yah it's hard to get comments I do not know why. Maybe some ppl do not read the blogs :(

Thanks for the plug by the way :-D

Posted by JadeJewel @ 02/21/2003 01:12 AM GMT

ohhhh.. i was trying to leave a comment on that other box but then i saw the weblog thing and I clicked on it so i can apparently leave comments here! haha.. but yeah, your website is awesome - you have a lot of HTML skills that I wish I had. If I ever get a domain of my own I think I'll have to come talk to you :)
Also, thanks for the kind words on my site - I really appreciate it.
And I also like (christina's) shirt? yay woman power! :)

Posted by Chrystal @ 02/20/2003 06:11 PM GMT

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February 22 2003

Happy Saturday!

Happy Saturday guyzz! I am sitting in front of the computer with my puppy on my lap (actually very uncomfortable cuz every time I try to move she sighs and looks all pissy).
Watched "How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days" last night... it was adowrable!! Especially the Celine Dion part hehe. I am working on the March issue of the magazine and posting a review for the movie so stay tuned for that.
A few days ago I discovered the amazing adiamondisfoerever.com website and custom built my own dream engagement ring! you can see it below:

Isn't it adowwwrable? Someday somehow ::sigh:: hehe
So don't have much to say lately. Have been home since Thursday, went and got this exam done on my knees cuz they have been hurting... so my lazy, limping ass hasn't even been going to the gym.

Btw, didn't do the Friday 5 this week cuz the questions were so lame they almost made me cry. Or maybe I didn't associate myself with them. Bah.

Glamkittie

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February 23 2003

The Hip-Hop bar from hell

Sooo, tonight my friends came to pick me up at my parents' house to go to some new bar/club called Subzero they had heard of. On the flier it said Live Music, Rap, Hip-Hop, R&B discobar. So I was like wuuuttt finally! A hip-hop place!!!
We all got there and heard in the background they were playing Eve's Satisfaction... I was sooo souped! Yeah I expected the music would not be the newest but so what? It was hip hop!
As we look around for seats (very hard to find) I look around. The place is not that big but I love the music, such "oldies" like Missy's One Minute Man and such. But the people around were somewhat eerie.
The girls got away with it all, they always do... a little ass shaking and you are ok.
But the guys... the guys, oh dear, they were dressed in the weirdest fashion! Some "baggy" clothing according to them was simply two sizes larger!
Well, who cares, I thought, it's hip hop music and it's not like I gotta dance with them, I have my friends here. Some girls were really trashy, but not ghetto fab, more like spikes on their hair and piercing... some weird punk fab I reckon'.

Things were going ok, finally got to sit down with my handicapped knee and drinking somethin' and ... suddenly... the dj's siren starts blaring and the dj goes "get-ready-for-a-night-of-fuckin'-fun" (in Italian, of course). And... all of a sudden... ... the YMCA started playing.
Damn, you should have seen the "thugs" getting jiggy with it! Thowin' their hands in the air, doin' their thang... I was in tears half from laughing half from imagining just what would have happened to those guys in a real hip-hop joint.
LOL!!! So ok, I am not a hip-hop mami but I loooove the music so it's cool to go and listen and move a little... but damn! those kids were going all the way!
And the evening went from the YMCA to this completely annoying house music in the background. My hip-hop dream had faded away... what a disappointment!

So I was talking to this kid I had met who was asking me questions about my life in the U.S. when he asked me "what's written on that kid's boxer band?" ... I turn around and I see this guy with his hands in the air, wearing a badly adjusted do-rag and sporting this t-shirt with a U.S. flag on it.
My friends asked me to ask the kid in English what was written on his shorts... so I called him over and asked him in a very stretched American accent "Whatchu got writtn' on yo boxers."
He looks at me and says "hold on" (in Italian) and he goes into hiding among his friends... WE WERE DYING!!! I mean, sure we are in Italy and people here don't speak English, but you got this kid wearing tims and his U.S. shirt, the do-rag and "Fuckin' Criminal" written on his boxer shorts (his girlfriend eventually told us) and he runs away when a girl asks him something!! My papi would have murdered him on the spot!!

BWA HA AND DOUBLE BWA HA HA! So yeah, the evening went on like that, and towards 2,30 they started closing down the bar and went back to Eve's Satisfaction... we came out of there feeling like shit, especially I wasn't feeling all that great. I thought at least the music was going to be all right, but nope. Someone told me about this famous club where they only play hip-hop... I guess if I find the way to get there I'll go... hopefully it won't be like this one!

However I have to say that the most AMAZING part of the evening was when we went off to this "Briocherie" which is a place that makes fresh croissants (and obviously a truckload of money a night) and we each had a fresh croissant with Nutella inside... mmmm Nutella is the most wonderful food besides pasta and pizza that Italians invented... mmmm which reminds me (!!!!) they do sell Nutella in the U.S. The best advice I can give you is GO BUY IT!!! It tastes amazing on bread and such.

Judyna's Procrastinating

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February 27 2003

Knee Dilemma

Bitzotch knee pain loves me

Yippee I AM indeed still alive, yup, besides the knee dilemma and such I have been doing ok. It's been almost two weeks now that my right knee is all messed up and hurts like a biznotch.
Got my exam's results back, pretty much say that I have problems with cartilage and have too much liquid in my knees... yap, sucks. But at least it's not very serious, I mean, there are ways to make things better! It's been almost 10 years that I've been having this problem with my knees so just the thought of doing something to fix them so I never feel pain again makes me look at things in a completely different light.
Tonight totally sucks... I mean, it so feels like a Friday but it's so not!! Dammit, tomorrow is time for work again, I am so tired! Even after taking two days off last week I feel like crap when I wake up in the morning... damn, wish that money would just fall down from the sky...

Wouldn't it be grand?

I KNOW THIS POST SUCKED BUT I'LL MAKE UP FOR IT- upcoming topic on this blog - peace. Do you believe in peace? Do u think there can really be peace? I'll let you know how I feel about that real soon!

I hope Popi gets better soon...

PS: Yah, do ya'll friggin know Lisa Marie Presley has a new single?? Sure, of course she needed a piece of the trying-to-make-it-into-the-music-biz-if-I-can cake. Check it out here, it blows ass! She is trying to look all hot and sexy forgetting she looks like a horse... poor Elvis...

Posted by chrystal @ 02/28/2003 03:29 AM GMT

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February 28 2003

Federica's debate on peace and such...

Peace… well peace. Whenever you think about that word, what comes to mind?
I remember when I was a little kid and go to elementary school my teachers taught us how to sing John Lennon’s “This is Christmas” (forget the exact title).
I remember knowing the song was about peace but having no clue what the words meant. I would sing worisofa (war is over) ifuwoni (if you want it) worisofa nananana. Yup, it’s all about wanting world peace right?
You know the whole Saddam thing going on right now. I am not going to tell you about my political ideas and thoughts but I am going to tell you something has to be done about this whole weapon deal. Of course I don’t want American, Italian, English and other kids to go out there and risk their lives, and innocent people to die… I think a good, healthy human being doesn’t in any way want war.

Rainbow Flags

do u beliece in pace?
Here in Italy we are divided on this whole war topic. Many think that Italy should join the U.S. and go to war but so many others think Saddam is of no threat to anyone, at least not threatening enough to start a war (in other words, there are supposedly more threatening adversaries than Saddam).
I’m thinking gotdamnnn, this fella is hiding lethal weapons underground and such, hating the U.S. so much, thinking about blowin’ our asses up… how can he not be dangerous?
Yes, so this is as far as I will take this politically. Don’t stand for war but do think something’s got to be done about this whole thang. Send him to exile or somethin’ … but this is not a way to live in peace, knowing someone is plotting to kill us all, no matter how innocent we are.
So, going back to Italy. The new millennium hippies expose huge rainbow flags with the word “PACE” written on them outside their windows. I guess if they asked me to do it myself I would put out an Italian flag, or maybe even the rainbow flag (which I guess here doesn’t stand for Gay Pride whatsoever!!) but … the word peace… is just not something I came to believe in my day and age.
What is peace exactly… world peace? Not bombing each other, not crashing planes against skyscrapers, not infecting mail with lethal powders and chemicals so that innocent people who pay their bills open envelopes and die the next day. Is that what peace means to many?
Well, peace to me is living in harmony with everybody else, not beating up your child or your wife (or your husband), helping people who are in need, not taking advantage of the help good people offer you, not killing people just because they do something bad to you, not so something bad to hurt people (so that they kill you)… being kind to animals and all living things (even non-living things – because what gives you the right to take advantage of them?).

Reality check
I think first we ought to think about finding peace within ourselves and among others before we put flags outside our windows.
You advocate peace, then think about the horrible things you do to others (or yourself) from the time you wake up in the morning until the time you go to bed.
Even parking in a handicapped spot so that a person who has trouble walking has to suffer because he parked his car in a spot that is half a mile away from the building he is trying to access due to your dumb laziness.
Or perhaps, talking shit about a person behind their backs and in front of them show them you are the best friend they could ever have so that they trust you and tell you everything you want to know.
Shut the fuck up before you advocate, think about the shit you do because of your selfishness and then decide what to do.
If you honestly think that you have not done something incredibly terrible or lately something little but also bad then open your damn window and display that peace flag proudly.
Because peace is the most amazing and beautiful thing we could ever dream of, but at the same time, it is a dream that can never really become reality.

1. What is your favorite type of literature to read (magazine, newspaper, novels, nonfiction, poetry, etc.)?
Books- I am totally in love with the classics, such as Greek and Roman mythology and such. I also enjoy reading any kind of narrative about cultural and gender studies.
Magazines- Like to flip through fashion & health magazines and love computer magazines.

2. What is your favorite novel?
Besides the Harry Potter books (hehe) I happen to love Amy Tan’s “The Joy Luck Club,”
Margaret Atwood’s “A Handmaid’s Tale,” Arthur Golden’s “Memoirs of a Geisha” and “Edith Hamilton’s” Mythology. Do enjoy reading as many Greek plays as I can.

3. Do you have a favorite poem? (Share it!)
I am not a huge reader of poetry (rather write it) and don’t have a particular favorite but do enjoy beautiful writing in general. I love songs written by the Indigo Girls and happen to think the movie “Forrest Gump” contains extremely beautiful writing in it. Don’t think that a piece of writing necessarily needs to have rhyme and lines of particular length to be considered poetry.

4. What is one thing you've always wanted to read, or wish you had more time to read?
My coworker has bought me a novel about philosophy for my birthday but I haven’t had time to focus on it. Sometimes I go through periods that I sit down and am able to read about 5 books a week but lately’s definitely not the right time.

5. What are you currently reading?
I am reading “Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire” for the second time. Do think that the Potter books are pleasant to read because there is not a lot of thinking involved to understand.
Also picked up a book on the history of Mussolini. I’ve always wanted to know more about this character who changed the history, present and future of Italy.

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